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  As much as he told himself to take one day at a time, Chuck found he needed to have this settled, to know Shana would be staying with him. There was no room for compromise on this matter.

  A few steps farther down the corridor, he discovered Shana in the study, reading on the sofa, a mug of hot cocoa on the coffee table. A blaze roared in the fireplace. Above, snow piled on the skylights, hiding nearly all of the inky night sky. Her hair was loose down her back, her legs curled up under her.

  So many times, he’d found her like this in the past. In the early days of their marriage, he wouldn’t have thought twice about joining her there, skimming his hands up her lovely legs. Kissing her senseless. Peeling her clothes away until they were both naked, the firelight licking shadows over their skin.

  At one time, he’d thought they had a future. Now...

  He had to ensure that her future—his child’s future—included him.

  Perhaps he could recover some ease with her in this room, in a space where they’d been happy. So often they’d shared time in the study, both of them in here while he’d worked from home. Even a year ago, they had still been close enough that he could distract her from her work with a neck massage, or an impromptu dance when her favorite song popped into the speakers from her playlist. Hopefully, those moments would happen again someday soon.

  Because no matter what the past had held for them, or what the future promised, he still desired her.

  He knelt on one knee by the sofa. “How are you feeling?”

  “Exhausted, but cared for.” She bit her lip before continuing, “I’d hoped meeting your family would spark memories, but no luck.”

  Guilt pinched, but it was best for all of them if she didn’t remember right away.

  Or ever.

  He picked up her hand and held it loosely, keeping himself in check. How easy it would be to sit on the sofa and pull her into his lap. “Shana, I know this has to be awkward for you.”

  It had been so long since they’d shared that kind of ease.

  “That’s an understatement.” Her eyes held his for a moment before she eased her hand away. She searched the room, her gaze never lingering long on any one spot. He followed her frenzied survey, taking in the bookshelves that arched high to the ceiling. Those shelves had been one of the things she’d loved most about this place, along with the greenhouse. He remembered how her face had lit up at the thought of a ladder leading to books wrapped around the room.

  She showed no signs of remembrance on her face.

  Giving her space—for now—he pushed to his feet. “I want you to know I’ll be sleeping in the guest room.”

  “Thank you. I realize this is tough for you, too.”

  “That’s an understatement.” He repeated her words, except for his own reasons. “But I know it’s far worse for you. I want you to take your time, take care of yourself, and the baby.”

  “Thank you for understanding.”

  He was walking a tightrope, needing to give her space, but working with a ticking time bomb that meant she could remember their past at any moment.

  For now, though, there was peace.

  Since she was settled, this would be a neutral time to check on work without worrying about her getting angry at him.

  He slid behind the desk and fired up his laptop, watching Shana out of the corner of his eye.

  She shifted on the sofa and hugged a throw pillow over her stomach where their child was nestled, growing. “What are you working on?”

  “Clearing away paperwork so I’ll have more days off to spend with you.”

  “I’m not an invalid. And my mother will be here for a week.” She tipped her head to the side. “Are you one of those guys who can’t stand his mother-in-law?”

  He weighed his words carefully as the truth could be tricky on this one. Her mom—Louise—had never seemed to warm to him. But then, she didn’t trust many people. Life had left her overcautious.

  “About four years ago your mother took a job in California.” Louise was a civilian employed nurse at a military installation. “Most of the time, you visited her rather than having her coming back here.”

  “Hmm...” Shana seemed to digest the information, glancing around the library, her gaze lingering on the laptop and the stack of files. “I’m sorry to keep you from the office.”

  The words felt like a blow.

  They’d had so many arguments over him being a workaholic. He didn’t think of his work that way since he loved his job. He’d been groomed to take over for his parents once they retired, except retirement hadn’t come. His father had died. His mother had doubled down, working to numb her grief. Only recently had she stepped back, since she’d fallen for her business rival. But now they were merging the oil companies.

  It was a dangerous time for Chuck to take personal leave, but he didn’t have much of a choice. His wife needed him, and he needed to win her back. For his own sake, and for the sake of their child.

  Their family’s future depended on it.

  He felt the weight of her gaze on him and looked up.

  Shana closed her book and reached for the mug of hot cocoa. “What’s going on?”

  “Why do you ask?” He clamshelled his laptop, looking directly at her.

  She set aside her mug and hugged her knees to her chest. “You look worried. I hate that I’m putting more stress on you. I know this has to feel even more awkward for you than it does for me.”

  He shook his head dismissively. “What makes you say that? You’re the one who’s lost five years.”

  “But I’m not the one whose spouse doesn’t remember me. I know that has to hurt, and I’m so sorry.”

  She hugged her knees tighter, eyes locking with his. The heat rose between them in an undeniable connection, building like the crackling fire.

  “I’m focused on what’s best for you.”

  “Then what’s got you so worried? I don’t have to be a private detective to read the tension in you.”

  He creaked back in the office chair, deciding to share. “We’ve been struggling with data leaks for a while, trying to follow the trails in email exchanges.”

  “A mole in the company?” She uncrossed her legs and pushed herself off the couch. As she moved through the white room, her hands lingered on stray books on the coffee table. She walked to the fireplace and picked up a heavy crystal photo frame off the mantel—a picture of the two of them from a romantic train getaway, from Anchorage to the Arctic Circle. He’d been trying to cheer her up after a failed in vitro attempt.

  “Seems so. We hired a new employee who, as it turns out, had a vendetta against us and the Steeles.”

  “What does the spy have to say?” She set the frame down and drew closer. Lithe as ever. Hot as hell. She sank back into the sofa, curling up.

  “She’s disappeared somewhere in Canada.” He righted his chair, then stood and walked toward her.

  “And you’ve hired private investigators.”

  “Of course.” He sat on the sofa, close enough that her toes grazed his thigh and the scent of her perfume tempted him to bury his face in her neck and inhale deeper. He recalled well how she always preferred floral scents in perfume, shampoo, even essential oils, all carrying through her love of flowers.

  As much as he hated the unanswered questions at work, he welcomed the ease of being with Shana this way, without the anger of the past year that had torn their marriage apart.

  “What do the investigators have to say about the data trails from her email exchanges?” she asked.

  “Nothing.”

  “Nothing at all?” She shook her head. “That’s strange.”

  “And you think you could do better.”

  “I surely couldn’t do any worse.”

  He snorted on a laugh. “Fair enough. What are you proposing?”

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bsp; “I don’t know how I used to spend my time while we were married, but I will go stir-crazy just sitting around. Let me do my part and take a stab at finding this woman.” She tapped his mouth before he could talk.

  The feel of her fingers on him made him ache to clasp her wrist and pull her onto his lap. Seal his mouth to hers and lose themselves in the way they connected best.

  But pushing too far, too fast would only harm his cause. So he simply took her arm and pressed a kiss to her palm before lowering her hand. Her throat moved in a long swallow that sent a surge of victory through him.

  “So, Shana, how do you want to proceed?”

  “Have the human resources department send me her application and any other information on her. I’ll start by digging around on the internet to see what I can find.”

  He wanted to wrap her in a cocoon, keep her close to protect her. Shana was strong-willed, and her fire had attracted him to her from the first.

  But her fire, her determination, also made things tough right now. If he wasn’t careful, she’d apply those investigative skills to their past.

  Perhaps internet research would distract her from the amnesia, keep her from digging too deep into how things had been between them.

  The last thing he wanted was for her to find out that on the day of her aneurysm, they’d decided to separate.

  * * *

  For the first time since waking up disoriented in the hospital room, Shana could finally breathe.

  The warm shower sluicing down her back eased her tensed muscles. The stress came as much from her too-sexy husband as it did from any medical issues.

  If only she could hide in the shower forever, just let the water wash away all tensions, all concerns. She would pretend for just a moment her life was simple and uncomplicated as the scent of her shampoo mingled with the aroma from the floral-scented candle she’d lit.

  How could she have forgotten her marriage? Had the aneurysm wiped five years from her mind for life? Or was the loss stress-related, not coincidental that the memory loss started at the time she’d met her husband?

  Trust was difficult enough for her under normal circumstances. She slid her hand over her stomach.

  There was no room for error. The stakes were too high. And she needed to take care of her health, which included rest.

  She turned off the shower and stepped out onto the heated floor. A sigh of pleasure slipped free. She definitely didn’t remember these, or any of the other luxuries from this life with Chuck Mega-Wealthy Mikkelson.

  Except she was a Mikkelson now, too.

  This was all too much to think about.

  She should be relaxing. She tugged a towel free and dried off, then wrapped the fluffy cotton around her body. She squeezed water from her hair, making her way into the dressing area.

  And slamming into a warm wall of hunky man.

  Chuck.

  Heat from the floor radiated up to send a flush of awareness through her body. Maybe it had been a bad idea moving in here with him as she waited for a cure for the amnesia. This kind of intimacy, the magnitude of their attraction, all of it so fast was...unsettling.

  “Excuse me,” he said, clasping her shoulders, his broad hands launching a tingle of excitement through her breasts. “I was just coming in to get some clothes from our closet.”

  Our closet.

  She drew in a couple of steadying breaths. “I, uh...” Her mouth went dry. She clutched the towel in a fist between her breasts. She should step away.

  Should.

  “I’ll leave you to it, then.”

  His thumbs moved along her collarbone. “I thought you were still downstairs in the kitchen.”

  The touch scrambled her thoughts and stole her breath.

  “I feel bad kicking you out of your bedroom,” she said, her eyes drawn to the vibrant green of his. “I can sleep in the guest room. It’s not like I’ll miss this space since I don’t remember it being mine.”

  Theirs. Together.

  Her gaze slid past him into the bedroom. How had they spent their time here before she’d become ill?

  She looked up to the tray ceiling and toward the black fan. She felt disoriented, spinning and spinning, like the blades circulating heated air. She wondered if she’d ever stop circling around this awareness, this nagging feeling at the back of her mind.

  She hated how she looked at the plush bed, with its overstuffed white pillows pressed against a headboard that practically went to the ceiling, and remembered...nothing.

  This place felt foreign.

  Even the pieces of her life that she recognized—like the antique perfume bottle from her grandmother on the mirrored bedside table—felt out of place. Familiar but not enough to comfort her.

  She realized Chuck hadn’t responded. His eyes had been tracking hers as she struggled to deal with this attraction to a man she barely knew.

  “I feel bad that things are so awkward between us,” she said.

  “There’s no instruction manual for how to deal with this.”

  She closed her eyes. Breathed in a hint of his aftershave, which sent a shiver through her that had nothing to do with the chilly day. She opened her eyes. “I’ve turned your life upside down.”

  “More like you’re turning me inside out in that towel.”

  “Oh. Right. Sorry.” Heat stung her face.

  “You have nothing to apologize for. It’s not your fault.” His hands slid down her arms and then away from her body as he stepped back. “Good night, beautiful. Sleep well.”

  After the way his touch had felt?

  Doubtful her night would be at all restful.

  * * *

  Chuck stretched back into the stiff off-white chair. He blinked his eyes clear, gearing up for another late night in his home office. The yellow light from the desk lamp dully illuminated the study.

  He stacked Shana’s things on the desk, putting her paperwork off to the left side, adjacent to the floral arrangements she’d picked out only four days ago.

  Might as well have been in another lifetime.

  The prospect of divorce rattled him.

  Mikkelsons didn’t fail.

  He’d been unable to sleep after walking in on Shana coming out of the shower. Only a couple of days ago they’d been at each other’s throats. Now, desire lit up the room every time they were near.

  But he saw the wariness in her eyes. And truth be told, he wasn’t interested in launching himself into the emotional shredder with her. He needed to save their marriage, but he also needed to keep things lighter between them. Surely they could enjoy the chemistry they shared and get back on an even footing in their relationship. Eventually, if this pregnancy came to term, they could also bring up their child.

  Chuck shook his head, needing to focus. And not on Shana for the moment. For now, he needed to pay attention to the numbers on the chart in front of him and prepare for his late-night meeting.

  He highlighted a few lines and scribbled thoughts off to the side. His messy handwriting populated the second page of the document. His eyes slid from the chart to his watch. 11:30 p.m.

  Sure, it was an unconventional meeting time. But everything lately seemed mighty damn unconventional. He fired up his laptop and turned on another light in the office. He looked around at the space—his shared space with Shana—and could see all the memories. How she’d arranged the bookshelf first by genre, then by author. She loved reading. And he’d been happy to help her locate the perfect ladder, the perfect carpenter for the recessed bookshelves, the perfect table desk. A lifetime ago.

  A lifetime he might have another shot at.

  The ding of Broderick’s conference call interrupted Chuck. Right. Business. Broderick’s uncle Conrad was a night owl, too, so the late time didn’t faze him, either. As for Chuck, he welcomed the chance to throw himse
lf into work for a while, no matter the time. Broderick had set the time for after his daughter was asleep.

  The video feed lurched to life, pixels turning smooth. Conrad and Broderick sat in the conference room at the Alaska Oil Barons, Inc., office, clean-cut and ready.

  No Jack Steele this go-around. Just his second-in-command, Broderick, Jack’s eldest son. And Jack’s brother Conrad stepping in to consult.

  Conrad Steele leaned forward, deep blue eyes a stark contrast to his thick salt-and-pepper hair. In his deadpan way, no emotions entering his expression, Conrad asked, “How’re things with Shana?”

  “Still no recollection of the past. But we’re settling into a new routine.” One full of desire that left Chuck aching. He wouldn’t mention that. “I appreciate your accommodating my working from home.”

  Broderick nodded, brow tense as he leaned forward, too, setting a pen down on the dark wood conference table. “If you need time off, just say the word.”

  Chuck barked a laugh. Time off was the furthest thing from his mind. “Last time I took a month for personal reasons, my brother threatened to break my legs.”

  Conrad smiled tightly. “Trystan handled himself well with the press and at the fund-raiser.”

  Trystan was the younger Mikkelson brother, who had been adopted by Jeannie and her first husband after his mother, Jeannie’s sister, had become addicted to drugs. He was as much a part of the family as all the other Mikkelson siblings.

  “Other than punching the paparazzi.” Broderick shot his uncle a look.

  The older man shrugged. “Some would say the situation warranted a fist to the face.”

  Grinning, Chuck said, “And some would say you’re siding with my brother to cause trouble.”

  Conrad steepled his fingers along his nose. “Trust between our families isn’t going to happen in a day.”

  Hell yeah on that point. “Especially when people like Milla Jones are throwing around accusations about my family.”

  Chuck wondered what Shana might find once she dug into the former employee’s files. Shana might have turned his life upside down, demanding more of Chuck than he knew how to give, but there was no denying she was all aces at her job. He wondered why he hadn’t asked her to take this on before her accident. Maybe because she’d seemed to have given up on her career as an investigator to make time for her fertility treatments.